Ladies and gents, sit back and let me show you how to fail at meeting your goals- or at least how I have failed at meeting the same goals over a long period of time. Hopefully by seeing where I went wrong, it will help you keep from making the same mistakes.

In the midst of cleaning my room, or attempting to, I found some of my old notebooks. I’m a girl that likes to write things down. I carry around mini notebooks, sheets of printer paper, and receipt tape scribbled with random notes of dreams, goals, and ideas.

I sat, flipping through my past, and one thing was evidently clear: I have many of the same goals from a year, 2 years, even 5 years ago. That realization hit me hard. I think about it constantly, and can’t seem to figure out why I haven’t been able to meet these basic goals of mine. I’ve tried and failed over and over again, seeming to take one step forward and three steps back every time. If I’m honest with myself, with many of these goals, I’m actually farther away than the year(s) before. I haven’t crossed anything off at all.

I’ve brought up my issue with weight a time or two on the blog, so I’m quasi-comfortable with talking about it now as one of the main goals. I’ve struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember. The funny thing is that I have gotten extremely close to my goals quite a few times, only to slip and fall even further than before. But now? Now I can’t even meet my first mini goal before I’m back to square one. The same goes for all of my other goals as well. I have been stuck, and it seems as though the cement that once kept me firmly in place has turned into quicksand. I don’t want to go under.

This failure at meeting my goals has morphed me into a type of person I can’t stand: a complainer- someone one continues to complain about their current predicament but fails to pull themselves out of the rut. You might as well slap that title smack dab in the middle of my name. Hi folks, I’m Jervishia “Complainer” Walker- which isn’t doing anything to help the situation because, honestly, the Universe manifests what you put your energy into. I’ve been in a rat wheel for years, and Vee is tiyad.

Guhls and guys, I’m over it. I’m about to reach the ripe old age of 26, and it’s time for new obstacles and goals. These are played out. I guess I gotta fake it til I make it because this is the last year I’ll waste the same energy on the same goals reaching the same results.

One thing I’ve learned is that things can’t change until you truly become fed up. Otherwise, your actions are just wasted effort. Honestly, I’ve reached that point. I’m tired of being tired. It’s finally time to change. Normally I’d tell you all to wish me luck. But this time, I don’t even need it.

Do you have any goals that you’ve been trying to reach, but it seems as though you can’t truly find your way? I’d love to hear about them.

Vee Valentine